OVEREATING

Overeating generally refers to the long-term consumption of excess food in relation to the energy that an organism expends leading to weight gain and often obesity. It may be regarded as an eating disorder.
This term may also be used to refer to specific episodes of over-consumption. For example, many people overeat during festivities or while on holiday.
Overeating can sometimes be a symptom of binge eating disorder or bulimia.

I have never ever thought of myself as an overeater. No wonder I have had such a hard time understanding how I got so fat!

I guess I have always considered overeating as binge eating-situations where you eat large quantities of unhealthy food quickly. I would like to think that maybe I am not a binge eater, but hey I can eat an entire bag of potato chips in one sitting. I am not a huge sweet craver but I like salty things and more often than not I am craving these things when I an either stressed, bored, mad or unhappy. I find ways to justify this behavior. I really hide this behavior. I eat in the car or after my husband and child go to bed.

I have been reading the book The End of Overeating and I am finding it really interesting.

I find lately that I am not motivated to do much of anything. How can I be this unhappy with my weight but refuse to do something about it?

Obese Girl out

ELASTIC

Yes Elastic that is where I am these days living in elastic waist pants. For work I have 2 pair of black, 2 pair of navy, 1 pair of gray and 1 pair of brown. I wear basically the same outfits to work all the time. elastic waist pants with an oversided blouse over the top. Attractive? NO!

Even at home I have 3 pair of elastic waist jeans and 3 pair of elastic waist denim shorts. I never wear any pants where I have to snap, button or zip. It is pathetic that I have gotten to the place where all I can wear is elastic waist bottoms (size 20P). I ordered them from the blaire catalog. The last time I wore a dress/skirt was my dads funneral, How pathetic is that?

I hate shopping for clothes for myself because it is so depressing finding anything that fits. I look like a huge cow! How did I do this to myself?

I did pack my lunch today. A sandwich on light bread, reduced fat provolone, two slices of smoked ham, lettuce and tomato. I had some carrots and a bear with it and I had a banana mid morning with a cup of tea and I still have a yogurt to eat.

Tonight there is an local AAPC meeting here at the hospital but I don't think I will go because I have Bella and Scott is working. Maybe I will finally get my floors vaccumed and washed.

obese girl out

MIA

I know that I have been missing in action for most of the summer. See my previous post from June to see what has been happening on the weight loss front.

I have indeed failed to start. I continue to think about it and even at times get depressed about how heavy I have gotten. Incidently the scale has stayed the same for the summer.

Today is a beautiful fall day here in the mid-west and I spent my lunch walking to Subway and back. All 218 pounds of me. I know ww would have me having a veggie sub which has absolutely no appeal for me. I would not walk from my office to Subway for lettuce and tomato on bread-No Thanks. I head an Italian BMT on whole wheat with provolone cheese and lettuce, tomato, pickles and black olives and light mayo and a bag of garden salsa sun chips and a diet coke. Was it a great option no, but at least I got out and got some exercise and fresh air.

I continue to read weight loss blogs and am in awe of the success of others when I seem to be such a failure at not only weight loss but pretty much everything else as well.

I have been reading "The End to Overeating" as the book was recomended and it is very interesting.

While I have not been losing weight I have been on vacation twice-Branson Mo and a number of local attractions including: The Tall Ships in Green Bay, WI, the Norman Rockwell exhibit in Oshkosh, the Air show in Rockford, On the Waterfront festival, the Shedd Aquarium, 2 days at Great America, and a nice 10th anniversary visit to Rotary gardens.

I turned 48 a few weeks ago and my daughter turned 8 and she celebrated with a trip to American Girl Place. Our Princess started 3rd grade and is back into dance class and brownies.

I continue to feud with my MIL.

I took a coding class this summer and passed my coding exam.

I moved all the lillies from my back yard, which was a hot sweaty,buggy job.

I continue to work of the affiliation deal at work not knowing if I will have a job when it is done.

My house remains unkept and the basement is a disaster. We wanted to build a shed in out yard for all the gardening and yard tools and bikes but we discovered we would need 3 variances with the city to get that done. We are now attempting to join our lots into one so we can put up the shed without the variances. We will see.

That is it in a nut shell, I plan on working on plan for packing my lunch and eating a healthy breakfast each day and maybe start exercising-see how non committal I can be? I would like to go to all day scrap this Saturday so we will see how that goes.

Obese girl out

Unable to start

Hi,

I have not written on here in a couple of weeks. The scale at monday's weigh in was 221.5 again! I read a lot of weight loss blogs, I read books, magazine and newspaper articles. I know what good nutrition is and I know how to exercise-I have even done it on occassion but certainly not recently. I want to lose weight, I know what the benefits of that would be, but I seem unable to start. I tell myself "Monday you will start exercising" then Monday rolls around and I shut the alarm off and stay in bed. I eat a healthy breakfast and then pack a healthy lunch but when lunch time rolls around I go out to eat or to the cafeteria or just get a bag of chips from the grocery store. I CAN NOT CONTINUE LIKE THIS! I have to tell you I seem to be Unable to start and that means anything. If the road to hell is really paved with good intentions I am well on my way and maybe even close to the destination. I can I been a smart, educated person but have to ambitioun to do anything for myself, for my health, for my well being. I don't have motivation to keep the house clean or to sew or scrapbook or garden. All I do is sleep, sit on the couch and watch TV, read and EAT. What kind of roll model am I to my daughter? How did I get this way? Believe me I have asked myself this question many, many times and I just DON'T have the answer. I am not looking for a miracle I am just looking for a start. HELP.

Obese girl out

weekend

Well the weekend has come and gone.
On Friday we went to the movie-Revenge of Nature, Bella thought it was really funny.

On Saturday we had to go to church for practice for the childrens mass, then I went to lunch with a friend and Scott & Bella went to see Mario. In the afternoon Bella's friend A came over and the dog got cut on her leg. We are not sure how that happened. We discovered that the power washer wouldn't work, so I just had to sweep and blow off the deck and driveway. We discovered that a Mallard duck had made a nest and layed 9 eggs by our back door. We also discovered 4 chipmunks had met their demise in a bucket of water-Gross!!! I buried them in the back yard and pulled a lot of weeds. My husband had a fit because my plan for supper was a homemade pizza but the crust was frozen, It did unthaw in about 30 min. Sunday I took Bella to religion class and Scott picked her up. We then each did our housework and got ready for church. Bella did the first reading of the children's mass and did a great job. Scott's mom and her husband came to church and then we all went out to lunch at the Backyard. They came to the house briefly and then they left and the three of us and the dog went for a walk at the forrest preserve. We have been trying to get out more on the weekend if the weather is nice.

I weighed in at 219 this am which is better than the 221.5 last Monday.

I had a really tough day at work. Bella and I had chinese for supper and then went to woodman's to do the grocery shopping.

Here is to a better day tomorrow.

THE SECRET PROJECT

As my family and close friends know for months now I have been working on a secret project at work. Yesterday there was a press release about the project and now it is not so secret. It was announced yesterday that the Health Sytem I work for is being aquired by another health system here in the same town. If it all goes through which know one knows it it will or not at this time, I will be working for OSF or maybe not at all depending on how things work out. It is a releif not to have to keep the secret but I have become more worriesome about my job and what will I do if I get let go. After the announcement yesterday and class last night I had an overwhelming urge to eat even though I did not feel hungry. I did resist and went home and this morning my weight was 218 so that is a loss for the week. I did eat lunch in the cafeteria today but I only had a salad.

Have a goof weekend.
Obese girl out

In the Trash

They only pick up the trash in our office suite a couple times a week, so on Monday morning when I came in there was the trash from Friday which included an empty bottle of diet Mt. Dew. a Ruffles Cheddar and sour cream bag and a wrapper from a 3 muskateers bar.

Ruffles 3 Muskateers bar
1 1/2 oz 2.13 oz
240 calories (140 from fat) 260 calories (70 from fat)
Fat 16g Fat 8g
sodium 350 sodium 110
carb 21g carb 46g

IS IT ANY WONDER I AM SO FAT?

500 calories
24 g fat
460 sodium
67g carbs

then to make matters worse Bella and I went to McDonalds for supper and I did not have a salad.

Yikes.

no wonder my wallet is skinny and I am fat.

Saturday was not much better as we bought a large bag of ruffles and a package of fudge sticks at target.

Obese girl out

Mother's day

Yesterday was Mother's day. I am ever so thankful for the munchkin in our lives that allows me to be celebrated on this day. Bella made me a hand colored laminated butterfly with magnets on it. Scott gave me flowers and cards and we went out to lunch at Applebees, we even had dessert. After Scott went to work Bella and I went to the Rotary gardens, they were amazingly beautiful and such a gorgeous day. Bella also entertained with cart wheels and head stands. On the way home we stopped at Culvers for lemon ice coolers and then on home. At home we picked up Lady and headed to the forest preserve.

In years past when Scott had to work on Mother's day we tried to squeeze in lunch with his mom, but not this year. Scott and Bella sent cards and Scott talked to her in the morning but that was it.

My MIL sent me a card and signed it mom-I did not really appreciate this. My mother is dead.

Things between my MIL and I are strained at best and utterly destroyed at worse. You pick. I just know I don't care to speak to her or see her or have Bella see her for that matter. According to her I am a liar, with a problem and I yell at her.

Friday she stopped by the house and left a couple of books for Bella and a pile of old papers for Scott. I am glad we were not home.

I would be remiss if I were to say that Mother's day came and went without me thinking about my own mother who has now been gone for 2 Mother's days. I am guessing the rest of my siblings thought about her too.

I weighed in this AM at 221.5. Even with extra walking I am not shedding pounds, but continue to feel the need to. I was interesed in reading the book "The End to Overeating" but despite the card catalog stating the book was on the shelf for weeks now it is not and I even had the librarian look too. I am reading stop stuffing yourself which is a WW book. We will see.

I have a lot of housework to do tonight-FUN
obese girl out

At least once a week I......

At least once a week I slop something on my shirt front. Usually my lunch, sometimes it is dinner and on occasion I think it even happens at breakfast. Now am I just too clutsy? Am I unable to manuver a spoon or fork from plate to mouth? Is it because I am Fat? Is it because I am too busty? If I had a chest that did not protrude out so far would the dribble, spill or splatter just land on the table, my napkin or my lap? I don't know why I seem to be cursed with this problem but I am. I have really permanently ruined some shirts this way not to mention the fact that I have to sometimes spend the rest of my work day wearing my lunch.

The last 3 days I have woken up with a headache. Wednesday I am guessing it is becaue I stayed up too late on Tuesday, straining my eyes over my coding homework. I was then tired all day on Wednesday so much so that I could have put my head down on my desk and taken a nap. I have read weight loss blogs that are testimonies to giving up sugar as that has eliminated certain weight warriors headaches and lethargy. Maybe I need to do this. I sure could use some headache free days and days where I feel awake the whole day. After work on Wednesday I laid down for a bit and did not wake up until 6:00 when Isabella is supose to be at brownies. We showed up a little late, lucky for us we live close to school. Yesterday my co-worker was having the same tiredness and then laid down when she got home, fell asleep and was late for class. Maybe it is the air in our offices.

I have no real plans for Mother's day weekend. It will depend a little on the weather. Bella does not have religion class so we will skip church. I tend not to go to church on Mother's day because priest/ministers have a way of insulting adoptive moms. Mother's day has been different since I lost my mom. It use to be that I would shop for my mom and shop for Scott's mom too. Now that I am not shopping for mother's day, Scott has to shop for his mom himself. I am/we are still feuding with Scott's mom and since he hung up on him the other day he says he does not feel like taking her out to eat or anything. He and Bella bought her cards and put them in the mail. Scott's mom did send me a card. She wrote in the card that I am a great mom, but how can that be when I am a liar, yell at her and have a "problem".


Hope everyone has a great weekend
Obese girl out.

ROWING

My niece and nephew are on the rowing team at New Trier High School. Their parents, especially mom are very proud of them. I give my niece a lot of credit too. I am not sure as a new high schooler I would have had enough confidence in myself to try a sport I knew nothing about and when none of my friends were doing it either. She is a very confident girl, she just turned 18 and will be heading off to Boston University in the fall and plans to be on their rowing team too. The boys have kind of followed in their sisters footsteps but that is ok. Keep up the good work Specht family! We had a great time visiting in Crystal Lake and watching you race, we probably will not have a chance to see Sarah race again, at least not anytime soon, but we will look forward to seeing the boys at the head of the rock in the fall.

City Dog

City Dog

We took Lady our city dog to the country over the weekend where she was introduced to a cow. Lady can be a brave little dog. She went nose to nose with a Holstein, it was really cute. Wish I would have had my camera. Lady also followed the farm dog around and chased the chickens. We were out on Sunday driving around in the new car and ended up stopping to visit one of Scott’s old classmates in Mr. Morris.

New Car

My husband decided he wanted a new car and he wanted a mini cooper convertible. We bought one on Saturday. We were at the dealer for over 3 hours. Ours is gray. Scott loves it, I hate the thought of a car payment again.

Baby Powder

The other day I happened to get some baby powder on the floor of the bathroom. My husband asked me about this since we don't have a baby. I said I had used it and he asked me for what, and I told him I was not telling him.

Well what did I use it for? I used it for under my breasts as that area has getting really red and sweaty. Embarassing I know.

Obese girl out

wishing stems, MIL and Jury duty

Bella calls these wishing stems. She finds them in the yard, at the park and at the forest preserve. She even finds them for me. So we have been wishing for all kinds of things lately and spreading dandylions in the process.

My MIL has been homw for about a month now. We had a go around at a local restaurant recently where she insisted she "wanted her friendship back" Well why did you destroy it in the first place? She will not accept that I have requested that my daughter not be left alone with her husband and claims I have a "problem". Well if protecting my daughter is a "problem" then I guess I have one. I tolk my MIL that I felt she owed me an apology for what she said on Christmas night and she claims she never said that. I say she did, she says she didn't does that make me a lier? She told my husband that I yelled at her at the restaurant-I could yell at her but didn't. She then wanted to know if she could have Bella every Monday this summer like she did last year and I declined ans she was not happy about that. I do not feel I can trust her. She then went into a big go around about how awful her childhood was. Lets trade stories and see who wins. This past Saturday my MIL called and wanted my add-a-pearl necklace so she could add some pearls, is this her peace offering? Why would you want to buy anything for a person with a "problem" who you think is a liar and who yells at you. I feel like she is being very manipulative of me, my husband and my child and I have had enough of it.

I had my friend Chris over Friday for dinner and we had a nice long talk and she showed me her pictures from her trip to Africa. I have really missed the friendship we had when we worked at the museum together. Hopefully we can keep it up. I know she has been having a rough time and I probably should have been more supportive.

On Saturday I could feel depression spreading over me like a blanket. I did not want to do anything, I was really cranky and tired. I spoke to my friend Lorretta on Sunday and I am feeling better.

we had a landscapter come over and give an estimate on doing some work at the front of our home and it will be nice to have that all looking better. I am not sure we will have enough money to do the back too, we shall see.

I loved the article in the Midwest Living Magazine about mosiacs. I looked up instructions and Bella and I are going to do some stepping stones.

Yesterday I had jury duty. I sat in a room at the court house with about 100 people from 8 in the morning to about 10 min after 2 when they released us all. I had brought a book to read, but ended up talking to the ladies at the table I was sitting at all day.

After I picked up Bella from school and gave her supper I took her and the dog to the forest preserve. We really enjoyed are walk there and the kid and the dog were all tuckered out when we got home.

Easter Weekend

Well we had a pretty eventful Easter Weekend. On Good Friday I took Bella to Ycare and then I went back home instead of to work. I made some lined curtains and a new table cloth for our dining room as well as laundry and cleaning.

Saturday we woke up to rain but it cleared up. We were happy about that as we were having friends over for a house warming party. Everything went really well. We are glad we had this opportunity to share with people who mean so much to us and who supported us through the fire ordeal. We even had an egg hunt for the kids.

On Sunday Bella woke up to find her Easter Basket on the porch and a new bike on the front sidewalk. I actually bought the bike back in November and we have had it stored in the work out garage as I decided I had bought her enough for Christmas and she could not ride it in the snow and we were living at a hotel. We went to 10:00 mass and then to my sister's for lunch. We did not get home until after 7:00. the MIL had dropped off an Easter gift, Scott called her but we have not heard from her and are speculating that she heard about the party and is mad-oh well.

Obese girl out

long time no post

It has been a long time since my last post. Obviously I am busy, but aren't we all.

We are home and everything is back except the big screen TV, They have had it since 12/4/2009 don't you think that is long enought to either fix it or give up money to buy a new one.

I have a ton of little decorating/organizing/cleaning projects to do but no ambition to do it.

I leave work thinking I will do this, this and this and then I get home and do NOTHING besides eat dinner and watch TV!

Work is hectic and stressfull, our new boss started last week and I moved offices to one with windows.

Spring is here by the calendar and the robins are back and my tulips are coming up.

I should be happy, and full of energy but I am not.

My weight is 221 pounds I am not exercising or eating right and because we eat out so much I am over budget on my credit card-

My MIL should be home shortly and unless she plans to apologize I don't want any interaction with her.

Obese Girl Out

Home again, Home again jiggety jig

The word is that we will be moving home this weekend. It has been a long time coming. I am grateful for a husband who partnered with me during this unforseen turn of events in our lives.

A lot of folks have stated that "It will be like moving into a brand new house" and they are right it will be. I am looking forward to emptying the boxes and rediscovering our things, putting them away, paring down (I know we have too much stuff) but what I am really looking forward to is sleeping in my own bed, getting Bella on a real sleeping schedule with a bedtime routine, making meals that require an oven and just the relief of being home.

My friends at work have been extremely supportive everyday and for that I am also thankful. I am hoping to have a re-house warming party in a few weeks.

I am also looking forward to getting back to exercising and watching what I eat. I am not looking forward to getting on the scale. I guess the only plan of action can be to accept the number that shows up and go on from there.

The one thing I am not looking forward to is Scott's Mom coming home in March. I just don't want that woman tainting my new home. I still have not found a way to forgive her for her comment about my dad and her overall "poor me" attitude accompanied by the fact that she has failed to give me credit for trying to get a long with Carl for the past 5 years.

Obese girl out

2 months down ? to go

Well we have been out of our house for 2 months now. The fire happened on the night of December 3rd into the early morning hours of December 4th. We lived for 20 difficult days with my husbands mom and her husband before a blow out, in which my MIL said something so hurtful to me that I am not sure I can ever forgive her. We have been in the hotel for 6 weeks. It is not an ideal situation and I certainly wish we were home, we have adjusted to the everyday.

Our house reconstruction is coming along. Our bedroom has been painted and the old cracked toilet removed. I expect that work in the upstairs of our house will be completed this week. The carpet guy I believe has been scheduled for tomorrow.

Plumbing and electrical have been completed downstairs and the ceilings have been drywalled, painted and textured. The walls of the living room and dining room have been primed. The kitchen ceiling is closed up but needs texture and the kitchen walls need to ne primed.

We have picked out the tile for the fireplace surround, it is not exactly what I want but it will do. We are still discussing new furniture for the living room, we will see.

Meanwhile my daughter is not getting adequate sleep. On Monday she threw a fit that probable registered a 10 fo the fit meter. It started when she lost a game of sorry. The crying, stomping screaming, talking trash continued throughout the shower. It continued after the shower while she put on pajamas and had her hair combed. It continued after she went to bed and now included kicking. I simply shut off the light and the TV and layed in the next bed facing away from the Isabella tornado and let her continue. I did not talk to her, I did not engage, this behavior was unacceptable and I wanted it to stop (I also wanted to spank her but didn't) My assessment: She was over tired and wanted attention. After only about 10 minutes the tornado calmed down and when I turned over to face her she was sound asleep. She slept until 7:00 and she was much better for it. Bella is not typically a fit thrower but when she does she really does it.

Report cards came out last Friday. Accademically she is doing ok but is still having issues with behavior and the teacher is still giving us very little feedback.

Last night was her brownie meeting (cookie pickup is this weekend-she only sold 30 boxes and actually Scott and I sold them) I stayed for the meeting to see how Bella handled herself and honestly I was not thrilled. The kid is loud and obnoxious! She must of said " what the heck" 15 times. That has to stop. I am guessing this is how she is behaving at school as well.

The kid is quite something in a lot of ways. Last week on the way to work and school we heard on the radio that Puxatony (sp?) Phil was texting. What follows is our conversation:

Me: "Bella how do you think a ground hog texts?"
Bella: "With his claws"
M: "Well don't you need a cell phone to text?"
B:"Yes"
M: "Well where do you think a ground hog gets a cell phone?"
B: "He walks down to the store and buys one"
M: "Don't you need money to buy a phone?"
B: "yes"
M: Where would a groung hog get money?"
B: "Babysitting"
M: "like other ground hogs/"
B: "Yes"
M: "what about a skunk?, Rabbit?, Squirrel?"
B: "No only ground hogs"

Alas to Bella's disappointment Phil saw his shadow-6 more weeks of winter-believe me if Phil lived in IL he would not have seen his shadow on Tuesday!

I am currently involved in a large project at work and Bella knows this. So I pick her up from Ycare the other night and she asks me: "How was work?, Did you work on your project?' to which I replied "yes" Bella says "Is this a gluing project" , " No baby it is not a gluing project" I say. Bella says "Is it a project to make a big sign that says "I Love my Job!', "no it is not that either but maybe Bella can make me a sign that says that as there are times I could use it.

Bella is currently missing her two top front teeth. Yesterday the radio was playing the new "New Orleans Saint's song" I look in the rear view mirror and Bella is sitting in her car seat bopping her head back and forth smiling from ear to ear. That kid cracks me up way more than she stresses me out-"its a good thing"

Obese girl out.

Living Space

well for the past few weeks Scott, Bella, Lady and I have been living in a small room at the extended stay America hotel. We have 2 beds, 2 chairs, 2 plates 2 bowls, 2 glasses, they did give us each a towel. We have a two burner stove, a refrigerator and a microwave. I am tired of living in this space. One it is messy all the time! 1. we have too much stuff in a small place and 2. a couple of people are having a hard time picking up after themselves (its not me). If we all want to eat together we have to move the table over to the bed so one person can sit on that. For Bella to go to bed on time and to go to sleep the rest of us also have to go to bed at 8:00 otherwise the light and/or TV is keeping her awake. I am not sleeping well. The sheet doesn't stay on, the matress pad is lumpy, the room temperature fluctuates and the heat and refrigerator coming on desturbs my sleep as does the dog and/or my husband. I am tired of living there and who knows how long we will be there. I guess we are waiting at this point for Benson Stone to schedule install of the vented insert and until that is done they can't close the walls us because we need an inspection. I just hope Benson stone finds a time to squeeze in our install. After that the restoration folks are saying things should move along fairly quickly.

Work is still stressful and this past wednesday we were suppose to have a staff meeting about the re-arrangement of duties but it got canceled. I guess MC stated that she was not going to admit she was wrong but just try and be pleasant. I am not sure she really did anything wrong in the first place. And MC is one of those folks who you can see right through her Pleasantness. Andrea says she is going to do the same thing, but this stick you head in the sand, paint a smile on your butt technique is not going to work. Leadership is lacking, somehow I think work is getting done. The meeting has been rescheduled to Monday 4-5 but the GC has a meeting before and after so I hope it can be done in the hour time frame especially when we never seem to start on time.

Scott works the weekend. Bella and I need to take the car for an oil change and probably a wash, we need to do laundry and work on the basement at the house and find some baptism pictures so she can complete her faith journal which is due on Sunday. If She gets her faith journal done I told her she could go spend her gift cards from Christmas. I don't know what else we will do this weekend and then Bella is off on Monday because of MLK day. Scott is off too so they will be spending the day together.

I sure hope we are home by Valentines day.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

WOW the holidays are behind us. They were really terrific in some ways-Bella loves the Barbie Camper that Santa brought. In other ways the holidays were stressfu. The day after Christmas we decided it would be best if our little family unit were to move to a hotel so now home sweet home is the Extended stay. We are cramped and bored but less stressed by the MIL and her hubby. It was wonderful seeing the Houston Meyer family and attending Caroline's baptism.

The house is coming along. We had to move our cat out while they did some special process to eliminate smoke particles in the air. We took her to my friend/co-worker Andrea's house. She didn't do so well there so we had to go retrieve her yesteday and she is back living in the basement at the house.

We had a wonderful time last weekend visiting my sister in Appleton. Lady tried hard the whole time we were there to make friends with their cat. I think Lady misses being with Isis.

We are in the middle of a snow storm, school was on so we treked across town and I dropped Bella off at school and I went on to work.

Today I visited a private Baptist school because I am looking to send Bella somewhere that has smaller class sizes so maybe she will get more individual attention. we shall see.

Tonight we have nothing on the agenda so once we are across town to our hotel we may stop at Woodmans for a few groceries and then probably a few games of kerplunk and sorry before turning in for the night.

Still not exercising or really watching what I eat. I did purchase the Beck diet book with a gift card I got for Christmas.

I know that is a brief update but it is all I have time for now. this not having a phone or email is not fun.