Well it has been almost a month since I posted here. Probably like a lot of bloggers that don't post when they are not doing very well.
This morning I weighed 198.8 pounds and I got up and did a kick boxing video.
Lots of stuff has been happening. Bella's first communion, Mother's day, memorial day, Bridal shower etc. Eating has not been way off the charts but not stellar either.
I have not been feeling well either. I had a period twice in the month of May which meant 2 full days that I was in so much pain that I really could do nothing but soak in a hot tub and pray for relief. I am guessing I should see my physician about this.
Things are not rosey in my marriage either. We had a counseling appointment last week but I think that my husband really thinks that I am the problem and maybe I am.
I feel tired a lot and bored and really unfocused. I think this is another bout of depression and I wonder when or if I will ever get in control.
Work is very stressful. I have very little to keep me busy and what I do have is not very challenging just time consuming. There are people in my department who are acting like high schoolers or maybe it is even younger than that. I find them to be rude, lazy, snobby and just unpleasant to be around.
I feel very much alone. I feel as if I have no friends. I feel as if I am a terrible wife and mother and the world might just be better if I just never got out of bed.
obese girl out
