OVEREATING

Overeating generally refers to the long-term consumption of excess food in relation to the energy that an organism expends leading to weight gain and often obesity. It may be regarded as an eating disorder.
This term may also be used to refer to specific episodes of over-consumption. For example, many people overeat during festivities or while on holiday.
Overeating can sometimes be a symptom of binge eating disorder or bulimia.

I have never ever thought of myself as an overeater. No wonder I have had such a hard time understanding how I got so fat!

I guess I have always considered overeating as binge eating-situations where you eat large quantities of unhealthy food quickly. I would like to think that maybe I am not a binge eater, but hey I can eat an entire bag of potato chips in one sitting. I am not a huge sweet craver but I like salty things and more often than not I am craving these things when I an either stressed, bored, mad or unhappy. I find ways to justify this behavior. I really hide this behavior. I eat in the car or after my husband and child go to bed.

I have been reading the book The End of Overeating and I am finding it really interesting.

I find lately that I am not motivated to do much of anything. How can I be this unhappy with my weight but refuse to do something about it?

Obese Girl out

ELASTIC

Yes Elastic that is where I am these days living in elastic waist pants. For work I have 2 pair of black, 2 pair of navy, 1 pair of gray and 1 pair of brown. I wear basically the same outfits to work all the time. elastic waist pants with an oversided blouse over the top. Attractive? NO!

Even at home I have 3 pair of elastic waist jeans and 3 pair of elastic waist denim shorts. I never wear any pants where I have to snap, button or zip. It is pathetic that I have gotten to the place where all I can wear is elastic waist bottoms (size 20P). I ordered them from the blaire catalog. The last time I wore a dress/skirt was my dads funneral, How pathetic is that?

I hate shopping for clothes for myself because it is so depressing finding anything that fits. I look like a huge cow! How did I do this to myself?

I did pack my lunch today. A sandwich on light bread, reduced fat provolone, two slices of smoked ham, lettuce and tomato. I had some carrots and a bear with it and I had a banana mid morning with a cup of tea and I still have a yogurt to eat.

Tonight there is an local AAPC meeting here at the hospital but I don't think I will go because I have Bella and Scott is working. Maybe I will finally get my floors vaccumed and washed.

obese girl out

MIA

I know that I have been missing in action for most of the summer. See my previous post from June to see what has been happening on the weight loss front.

I have indeed failed to start. I continue to think about it and even at times get depressed about how heavy I have gotten. Incidently the scale has stayed the same for the summer.

Today is a beautiful fall day here in the mid-west and I spent my lunch walking to Subway and back. All 218 pounds of me. I know ww would have me having a veggie sub which has absolutely no appeal for me. I would not walk from my office to Subway for lettuce and tomato on bread-No Thanks. I head an Italian BMT on whole wheat with provolone cheese and lettuce, tomato, pickles and black olives and light mayo and a bag of garden salsa sun chips and a diet coke. Was it a great option no, but at least I got out and got some exercise and fresh air.

I continue to read weight loss blogs and am in awe of the success of others when I seem to be such a failure at not only weight loss but pretty much everything else as well.

I have been reading "The End to Overeating" as the book was recomended and it is very interesting.

While I have not been losing weight I have been on vacation twice-Branson Mo and a number of local attractions including: The Tall Ships in Green Bay, WI, the Norman Rockwell exhibit in Oshkosh, the Air show in Rockford, On the Waterfront festival, the Shedd Aquarium, 2 days at Great America, and a nice 10th anniversary visit to Rotary gardens.

I turned 48 a few weeks ago and my daughter turned 8 and she celebrated with a trip to American Girl Place. Our Princess started 3rd grade and is back into dance class and brownies.

I continue to feud with my MIL.

I took a coding class this summer and passed my coding exam.

I moved all the lillies from my back yard, which was a hot sweaty,buggy job.

I continue to work of the affiliation deal at work not knowing if I will have a job when it is done.

My house remains unkept and the basement is a disaster. We wanted to build a shed in out yard for all the gardening and yard tools and bikes but we discovered we would need 3 variances with the city to get that done. We are now attempting to join our lots into one so we can put up the shed without the variances. We will see.

That is it in a nut shell, I plan on working on plan for packing my lunch and eating a healthy breakfast each day and maybe start exercising-see how non committal I can be? I would like to go to all day scrap this Saturday so we will see how that goes.

Obese girl out

Unable to start

Hi,

I have not written on here in a couple of weeks. The scale at monday's weigh in was 221.5 again! I read a lot of weight loss blogs, I read books, magazine and newspaper articles. I know what good nutrition is and I know how to exercise-I have even done it on occassion but certainly not recently. I want to lose weight, I know what the benefits of that would be, but I seem unable to start. I tell myself "Monday you will start exercising" then Monday rolls around and I shut the alarm off and stay in bed. I eat a healthy breakfast and then pack a healthy lunch but when lunch time rolls around I go out to eat or to the cafeteria or just get a bag of chips from the grocery store. I CAN NOT CONTINUE LIKE THIS! I have to tell you I seem to be Unable to start and that means anything. If the road to hell is really paved with good intentions I am well on my way and maybe even close to the destination. I can I been a smart, educated person but have to ambitioun to do anything for myself, for my health, for my well being. I don't have motivation to keep the house clean or to sew or scrapbook or garden. All I do is sleep, sit on the couch and watch TV, read and EAT. What kind of roll model am I to my daughter? How did I get this way? Believe me I have asked myself this question many, many times and I just DON'T have the answer. I am not looking for a miracle I am just looking for a start. HELP.

Obese girl out

weekend

Well the weekend has come and gone.
On Friday we went to the movie-Revenge of Nature, Bella thought it was really funny.

On Saturday we had to go to church for practice for the childrens mass, then I went to lunch with a friend and Scott & Bella went to see Mario. In the afternoon Bella's friend A came over and the dog got cut on her leg. We are not sure how that happened. We discovered that the power washer wouldn't work, so I just had to sweep and blow off the deck and driveway. We discovered that a Mallard duck had made a nest and layed 9 eggs by our back door. We also discovered 4 chipmunks had met their demise in a bucket of water-Gross!!! I buried them in the back yard and pulled a lot of weeds. My husband had a fit because my plan for supper was a homemade pizza but the crust was frozen, It did unthaw in about 30 min. Sunday I took Bella to religion class and Scott picked her up. We then each did our housework and got ready for church. Bella did the first reading of the children's mass and did a great job. Scott's mom and her husband came to church and then we all went out to lunch at the Backyard. They came to the house briefly and then they left and the three of us and the dog went for a walk at the forrest preserve. We have been trying to get out more on the weekend if the weather is nice.

I weighed in at 219 this am which is better than the 221.5 last Monday.

I had a really tough day at work. Bella and I had chinese for supper and then went to woodman's to do the grocery shopping.

Here is to a better day tomorrow.

THE SECRET PROJECT

As my family and close friends know for months now I have been working on a secret project at work. Yesterday there was a press release about the project and now it is not so secret. It was announced yesterday that the Health Sytem I work for is being aquired by another health system here in the same town. If it all goes through which know one knows it it will or not at this time, I will be working for OSF or maybe not at all depending on how things work out. It is a releif not to have to keep the secret but I have become more worriesome about my job and what will I do if I get let go. After the announcement yesterday and class last night I had an overwhelming urge to eat even though I did not feel hungry. I did resist and went home and this morning my weight was 218 so that is a loss for the week. I did eat lunch in the cafeteria today but I only had a salad.

Have a goof weekend.
Obese girl out

In the Trash

They only pick up the trash in our office suite a couple times a week, so on Monday morning when I came in there was the trash from Friday which included an empty bottle of diet Mt. Dew. a Ruffles Cheddar and sour cream bag and a wrapper from a 3 muskateers bar.

Ruffles 3 Muskateers bar
1 1/2 oz 2.13 oz
240 calories (140 from fat) 260 calories (70 from fat)
Fat 16g Fat 8g
sodium 350 sodium 110
carb 21g carb 46g

IS IT ANY WONDER I AM SO FAT?

500 calories
24 g fat
460 sodium
67g carbs

then to make matters worse Bella and I went to McDonalds for supper and I did not have a salad.

Yikes.

no wonder my wallet is skinny and I am fat.

Saturday was not much better as we bought a large bag of ruffles and a package of fudge sticks at target.

Obese girl out