Weight

On the Morning of January 1st 2012 I stepped on the scale hoping to see a smaller number than the one that had greeted me in the past and saw instead an even 200 pounds. Not what I wanted to see. On the Morning of February 1st 2012 I again stepped on the scale with the same hope and was greeted by 201 pounds. Yippee I gained a pound in the month of January even though I basically worked out for a hour a day 6 days a week and sometimes swimming on Sunday. It is obvious that weight loss cannot be achieved by increasing physical activity alone. I know I must also watch my diet. I just have such a difficult time with cravings and then taking the steps to satisfy those with whatever it is I think I cannot live without wether it is chips, dessert, pop or meals out. Giving in to those cravings have made me fat! I need to find a way to stop it.

Obese girl out

Happy 2012

Happy New Year! I'm really looking forward to the new year. Yesterday Bella and I went to the Y to swim for a couple of hours, had chinese for lunch and watched the lion the witch and the wardrobe. We made it to midnight but that is about it. This morning I slept in until 8 which is late for me and the dogs. The first thing this morning I thought it felt more like the first of March coming in like a lion than it did the first day of a new year. We watched some Football but alas the Packers were not on TV here. Glad they won. we went bowling and out to taco bell for supper the rest of the time was spent cleaning and taking down Christmas. Hope everyone has a great start to the new year. I weighed 198 yesterday morning but an even 200 this morning. I am hoping the only way is down now. I also had a great conversation with my friend L and I am looking forward to getting together with her later this month.
Obese girl out.

Last night

Last night I picked Bella up from Ycare. She was complaining of a headache. I got her a happy meal on the way home and when we got home I gave her some tylenol and she fell asleep on the couch. About an hour late she woke up and I had her do her homework which per usual took way longer than a one page social study assignment should take. They are finishing up the unit on the US South East with a section on civil rights, MLK and Rosa Parks. While she was doing homework I was working on completing the skirts I had designed to make for the Houston Meyer girls. I should finish tonight. I think they did turn out great! Bella lost a tooth last night after she was in bed and during her bath last night she was singing "santa Baby" The kid cracks me up.

Still getting to the Y in the mornings for an hour or so-still obese.

October

Yes October. The summer has ended and what a great summer it has been. Lots of fun things going on, places to see, people to meet etc.

I really love fall and last weekend has got to be some of the best fall days ever. Saturday we were at the RHS fall fest all day, I was exhausted Saturday night. Sunday my sister and her family were in town for the Regatta and then we watched the packer game.

I really want to get a trip to the pumpkin patch and to the apple orchard in yet this month.

This Saturday I plan on going to all day scrap-really looking forward to it.

Work is going great! Can't believe what a different atmospher it is now that AE has quit and gone to Law School. I have applied for her old job-we will see.

As always I have tons of things on my to do list-far more than I would ever have time to do even if I did not sit on my ass and watch TV at nigh.

Again hoping to start posting more.

Obese girl Out

A month-Really?

Well it has been almost a month since I posted here. Probably like a lot of bloggers that don't post when they are not doing very well.

This morning I weighed 198.8 pounds and I got up and did a kick boxing video.

Lots of stuff has been happening. Bella's first communion, Mother's day, memorial day, Bridal shower etc. Eating has not been way off the charts but not stellar either.

I have not been feeling well either. I had a period twice in the month of May which meant 2 full days that I was in so much pain that I really could do nothing but soak in a hot tub and pray for relief. I am guessing I should see my physician about this.

Things are not rosey in my marriage either. We had a counseling appointment last week but I think that my husband really thinks that I am the problem and maybe I am.

I feel tired a lot and bored and really unfocused. I think this is another bout of depression and I wonder when or if I will ever get in control.

Work is very stressful. I have very little to keep me busy and what I do have is not very challenging just time consuming. There are people in my department who are acting like high schoolers or maybe it is even younger than that. I find them to be rude, lazy, snobby and just unpleasant to be around.

I feel very much alone. I feel as if I have no friends. I feel as if I am a terrible wife and mother and the world might just be better if I just never got out of bed.

obese girl out

Weekend

The weekend was incredibly busy. On Friday night we went to Panera for dinner. I had the thai chopped salad, it was good but spicy, we got paint for the porch floor and 2 new pairs of jeans for the skinny kid. I worked on the porch trying to get it clean. Mostly I moved stuff to the basement. I now need to work down there. My goal is to do a little each night. Saturday I was up early and got cleaning again. I polished all the wood floors on my hands and knees, vaccumed, did laundry cleaned the bathrooms etc. busy, busy, busy. around one we went to culvers for a salad and then to the grocery store for a few things. Back home I made cupcakes, potato salad and pasta salad. The porch is almost clean. I wish Scott would have helped me more with stuff. Sunday again up early and it was sunny. Finished moving stuff from the sun porch to the garage, frosted cup cakes, dipped strawberries set up the table. We had 20 people for lunch (mom and carl forgot to bring the table and chairs and had to return home to get them) Aunt Norma got lost a couple of times and Sonya and family (bringing the punch bowl) were late. Lunch was good I think everyone had enough to eat. Bella changed and opened her gifts. Then it was a mad dash to get dressed and to church only to have to wait until the baptisms were done to get in. Bella did great, we are so proud of her. My eating was not great as I had a sandwich, potato salad, pasta salad and a cupcake all with loads of carbs. Doing a little better today. My weight was 195 pounds. I really want to get below 190 in the month of May. Today I have been really hungry for chicken strips not sure where a craving like that comes from. We are busy tonight with dance class.

Obese girl out

Beautiful!

Today dawned absolutely beautiful after days and days of cloudy weather and rain and cool temps. The sun is shining and today I was up before dawn. I got up at 4:00 am so I could watch the royal wedding! It was so beautiful. I made orange/cranberry scones last night and had them this am with English tea-I know not low carb but a great way to celebrate.

I am doing well, just wish I was more ambitious. We have company coming on Sunday and the sun porch is still a mess and the front porch floor still needs painting.

I got a fed ex package today from HF, it contained a present for Isabella's first communion. I am not sure why she sent it since I am sure she has only heard how horrible I am from A. Whatever.

Looking forward to the weekend. Sunday is May 1 and the date I have targeted to get active again. I bought a new pedomiter today. I will start logging my steps.

Obese girl out