Baby Powder

The other day I happened to get some baby powder on the floor of the bathroom. My husband asked me about this since we don't have a baby. I said I had used it and he asked me for what, and I told him I was not telling him.

Well what did I use it for? I used it for under my breasts as that area has getting really red and sweaty. Embarassing I know.

Obese girl out

wishing stems, MIL and Jury duty

Bella calls these wishing stems. She finds them in the yard, at the park and at the forest preserve. She even finds them for me. So we have been wishing for all kinds of things lately and spreading dandylions in the process.

My MIL has been homw for about a month now. We had a go around at a local restaurant recently where she insisted she "wanted her friendship back" Well why did you destroy it in the first place? She will not accept that I have requested that my daughter not be left alone with her husband and claims I have a "problem". Well if protecting my daughter is a "problem" then I guess I have one. I tolk my MIL that I felt she owed me an apology for what she said on Christmas night and she claims she never said that. I say she did, she says she didn't does that make me a lier? She told my husband that I yelled at her at the restaurant-I could yell at her but didn't. She then wanted to know if she could have Bella every Monday this summer like she did last year and I declined ans she was not happy about that. I do not feel I can trust her. She then went into a big go around about how awful her childhood was. Lets trade stories and see who wins. This past Saturday my MIL called and wanted my add-a-pearl necklace so she could add some pearls, is this her peace offering? Why would you want to buy anything for a person with a "problem" who you think is a liar and who yells at you. I feel like she is being very manipulative of me, my husband and my child and I have had enough of it.

I had my friend Chris over Friday for dinner and we had a nice long talk and she showed me her pictures from her trip to Africa. I have really missed the friendship we had when we worked at the museum together. Hopefully we can keep it up. I know she has been having a rough time and I probably should have been more supportive.

On Saturday I could feel depression spreading over me like a blanket. I did not want to do anything, I was really cranky and tired. I spoke to my friend Lorretta on Sunday and I am feeling better.

we had a landscapter come over and give an estimate on doing some work at the front of our home and it will be nice to have that all looking better. I am not sure we will have enough money to do the back too, we shall see.

I loved the article in the Midwest Living Magazine about mosiacs. I looked up instructions and Bella and I are going to do some stepping stones.

Yesterday I had jury duty. I sat in a room at the court house with about 100 people from 8 in the morning to about 10 min after 2 when they released us all. I had brought a book to read, but ended up talking to the ladies at the table I was sitting at all day.

After I picked up Bella from school and gave her supper I took her and the dog to the forest preserve. We really enjoyed are walk there and the kid and the dog were all tuckered out when we got home.

Easter Weekend

Well we had a pretty eventful Easter Weekend. On Good Friday I took Bella to Ycare and then I went back home instead of to work. I made some lined curtains and a new table cloth for our dining room as well as laundry and cleaning.

Saturday we woke up to rain but it cleared up. We were happy about that as we were having friends over for a house warming party. Everything went really well. We are glad we had this opportunity to share with people who mean so much to us and who supported us through the fire ordeal. We even had an egg hunt for the kids.

On Sunday Bella woke up to find her Easter Basket on the porch and a new bike on the front sidewalk. I actually bought the bike back in November and we have had it stored in the work out garage as I decided I had bought her enough for Christmas and she could not ride it in the snow and we were living at a hotel. We went to 10:00 mass and then to my sister's for lunch. We did not get home until after 7:00. the MIL had dropped off an Easter gift, Scott called her but we have not heard from her and are speculating that she heard about the party and is mad-oh well.

Obese girl out

long time no post

It has been a long time since my last post. Obviously I am busy, but aren't we all.

We are home and everything is back except the big screen TV, They have had it since 12/4/2009 don't you think that is long enought to either fix it or give up money to buy a new one.

I have a ton of little decorating/organizing/cleaning projects to do but no ambition to do it.

I leave work thinking I will do this, this and this and then I get home and do NOTHING besides eat dinner and watch TV!

Work is hectic and stressfull, our new boss started last week and I moved offices to one with windows.

Spring is here by the calendar and the robins are back and my tulips are coming up.

I should be happy, and full of energy but I am not.

My weight is 221 pounds I am not exercising or eating right and because we eat out so much I am over budget on my credit card-

My MIL should be home shortly and unless she plans to apologize I don't want any interaction with her.

Obese Girl Out

Home again, Home again jiggety jig

The word is that we will be moving home this weekend. It has been a long time coming. I am grateful for a husband who partnered with me during this unforseen turn of events in our lives.

A lot of folks have stated that "It will be like moving into a brand new house" and they are right it will be. I am looking forward to emptying the boxes and rediscovering our things, putting them away, paring down (I know we have too much stuff) but what I am really looking forward to is sleeping in my own bed, getting Bella on a real sleeping schedule with a bedtime routine, making meals that require an oven and just the relief of being home.

My friends at work have been extremely supportive everyday and for that I am also thankful. I am hoping to have a re-house warming party in a few weeks.

I am also looking forward to getting back to exercising and watching what I eat. I am not looking forward to getting on the scale. I guess the only plan of action can be to accept the number that shows up and go on from there.

The one thing I am not looking forward to is Scott's Mom coming home in March. I just don't want that woman tainting my new home. I still have not found a way to forgive her for her comment about my dad and her overall "poor me" attitude accompanied by the fact that she has failed to give me credit for trying to get a long with Carl for the past 5 years.

Obese girl out

2 months down ? to go

Well we have been out of our house for 2 months now. The fire happened on the night of December 3rd into the early morning hours of December 4th. We lived for 20 difficult days with my husbands mom and her husband before a blow out, in which my MIL said something so hurtful to me that I am not sure I can ever forgive her. We have been in the hotel for 6 weeks. It is not an ideal situation and I certainly wish we were home, we have adjusted to the everyday.

Our house reconstruction is coming along. Our bedroom has been painted and the old cracked toilet removed. I expect that work in the upstairs of our house will be completed this week. The carpet guy I believe has been scheduled for tomorrow.

Plumbing and electrical have been completed downstairs and the ceilings have been drywalled, painted and textured. The walls of the living room and dining room have been primed. The kitchen ceiling is closed up but needs texture and the kitchen walls need to ne primed.

We have picked out the tile for the fireplace surround, it is not exactly what I want but it will do. We are still discussing new furniture for the living room, we will see.

Meanwhile my daughter is not getting adequate sleep. On Monday she threw a fit that probable registered a 10 fo the fit meter. It started when she lost a game of sorry. The crying, stomping screaming, talking trash continued throughout the shower. It continued after the shower while she put on pajamas and had her hair combed. It continued after she went to bed and now included kicking. I simply shut off the light and the TV and layed in the next bed facing away from the Isabella tornado and let her continue. I did not talk to her, I did not engage, this behavior was unacceptable and I wanted it to stop (I also wanted to spank her but didn't) My assessment: She was over tired and wanted attention. After only about 10 minutes the tornado calmed down and when I turned over to face her she was sound asleep. She slept until 7:00 and she was much better for it. Bella is not typically a fit thrower but when she does she really does it.

Report cards came out last Friday. Accademically she is doing ok but is still having issues with behavior and the teacher is still giving us very little feedback.

Last night was her brownie meeting (cookie pickup is this weekend-she only sold 30 boxes and actually Scott and I sold them) I stayed for the meeting to see how Bella handled herself and honestly I was not thrilled. The kid is loud and obnoxious! She must of said " what the heck" 15 times. That has to stop. I am guessing this is how she is behaving at school as well.

The kid is quite something in a lot of ways. Last week on the way to work and school we heard on the radio that Puxatony (sp?) Phil was texting. What follows is our conversation:

Me: "Bella how do you think a ground hog texts?"
Bella: "With his claws"
M: "Well don't you need a cell phone to text?"
B:"Yes"
M: "Well where do you think a ground hog gets a cell phone?"
B: "He walks down to the store and buys one"
M: "Don't you need money to buy a phone?"
B: "yes"
M: Where would a groung hog get money?"
B: "Babysitting"
M: "like other ground hogs/"
B: "Yes"
M: "what about a skunk?, Rabbit?, Squirrel?"
B: "No only ground hogs"

Alas to Bella's disappointment Phil saw his shadow-6 more weeks of winter-believe me if Phil lived in IL he would not have seen his shadow on Tuesday!

I am currently involved in a large project at work and Bella knows this. So I pick her up from Ycare the other night and she asks me: "How was work?, Did you work on your project?' to which I replied "yes" Bella says "Is this a gluing project" , " No baby it is not a gluing project" I say. Bella says "Is it a project to make a big sign that says "I Love my Job!', "no it is not that either but maybe Bella can make me a sign that says that as there are times I could use it.

Bella is currently missing her two top front teeth. Yesterday the radio was playing the new "New Orleans Saint's song" I look in the rear view mirror and Bella is sitting in her car seat bopping her head back and forth smiling from ear to ear. That kid cracks me up way more than she stresses me out-"its a good thing"

Obese girl out.

Living Space

well for the past few weeks Scott, Bella, Lady and I have been living in a small room at the extended stay America hotel. We have 2 beds, 2 chairs, 2 plates 2 bowls, 2 glasses, they did give us each a towel. We have a two burner stove, a refrigerator and a microwave. I am tired of living in this space. One it is messy all the time! 1. we have too much stuff in a small place and 2. a couple of people are having a hard time picking up after themselves (its not me). If we all want to eat together we have to move the table over to the bed so one person can sit on that. For Bella to go to bed on time and to go to sleep the rest of us also have to go to bed at 8:00 otherwise the light and/or TV is keeping her awake. I am not sleeping well. The sheet doesn't stay on, the matress pad is lumpy, the room temperature fluctuates and the heat and refrigerator coming on desturbs my sleep as does the dog and/or my husband. I am tired of living there and who knows how long we will be there. I guess we are waiting at this point for Benson Stone to schedule install of the vented insert and until that is done they can't close the walls us because we need an inspection. I just hope Benson stone finds a time to squeeze in our install. After that the restoration folks are saying things should move along fairly quickly.

Work is still stressful and this past wednesday we were suppose to have a staff meeting about the re-arrangement of duties but it got canceled. I guess MC stated that she was not going to admit she was wrong but just try and be pleasant. I am not sure she really did anything wrong in the first place. And MC is one of those folks who you can see right through her Pleasantness. Andrea says she is going to do the same thing, but this stick you head in the sand, paint a smile on your butt technique is not going to work. Leadership is lacking, somehow I think work is getting done. The meeting has been rescheduled to Monday 4-5 but the GC has a meeting before and after so I hope it can be done in the hour time frame especially when we never seem to start on time.

Scott works the weekend. Bella and I need to take the car for an oil change and probably a wash, we need to do laundry and work on the basement at the house and find some baptism pictures so she can complete her faith journal which is due on Sunday. If She gets her faith journal done I told her she could go spend her gift cards from Christmas. I don't know what else we will do this weekend and then Bella is off on Monday because of MLK day. Scott is off too so they will be spending the day together.

I sure hope we are home by Valentines day.