Well since it has been 2 weeks since my last post. I thought I would give just a quick update.
-Last week I was out sick two days. I ended up going to the immediate care at the new Northepoint center and it was nice and I got in right away. I didn't have strep throat but they diagnosed me with an upper respiratory infection, these tend to hang on a long time for me. Bella was off school on Tuesday so we played a lot of candy land. I did get her to swim lessons but we decided not to do our regular grocery shopping afterwards and just came home.
-My boss is in Japan for 2 weeks but I still have plenty to do. The new paralegal starts next week. She will be taking over the policy project.
-Bella passed the first level of skating lessons and will start the next session this Saturday. She does seem to enjoy it. I need to take her to open skate sometime so that she can practice. I am just not sure I can still skate.
-This weekend is T-ball sign up. Scott is taking care of that as I will be at an all day scrapbook event.
-We saw the "waterhorse" last weekend and enjoyed it.
-With all the warmer weather and snow melting and rain the garage roof is leaking heavily into Scott's workour space so we will have that roof replaced in the near future.
-Somehow yesterday the babysitter was not there to receive Bella fromt he bus so they returned her to school and called me. I have no idea what actually happened as the babysitter said she was home and was really quite frantic when she did not arrive. Bella said the bus stopped and beeped and beeped but Karshon never came out. Again I don't know what happened exactly but I got her from school and everything is fine.
-I have been watching the biggest loser (wishing I was a bigger loser, in the weight loss area anyway) and I don't really care who wins this time around. None of the contestents are overy likeable. I hope they do a makeover show, because Dan could use it.
-This Sunday my nephew Patrick will be confirmed, we are driving down Sunday with my Aunt Norma. My dad has decided not to come down and I think it stinks!
-This week Brett Farve decided to resign from the NFL and the Packers. It is quite emotional for us Packer fans.
-We are expecting a cold weekend but then it is going to warm up.
-Bella and I are waiting for spring.
-Next week Scott's mom and her husband will return from their winter trip and we will have to contend with them.
-My mom had a birthday this past week and my parents also had their 47th wedding anniversary.
-I got a letter in the mail from my friend Pat, I guess her computer died so we will have to resort to regular mail and the telephone to keep in touch.
-Bella has done well at school this week but she has been a little troublesome at home in not listening and arguing about what you ask her to do. Then when you put her in the corner she wails like you are actually hurting her. Very frustrating, but I am trying hard to instill respect for her parents and the idea that if we ask her to do something she should do it without complaint.
-My sister is sick with strep and stuff so I hope she is feeling better.
-I have not been exercising but have been eating much better. I am really tired these days and trying to get more rest. My goal is to start exercising again on Monday.
Thats all for now. Have a great weekend.
Friday, March 7, 2008
Friday, February 22, 2008
COLD
Well it has been very cold in Northern Illinois. We were in the single digits the first part of the week with windchills in the -20s. It is warming up some which is a good sign. Bella is always asking me when Spring is coming.
I had taken Valentines Day off from work and Scott and I put Bella on the bus to go to school at noon and then went out to lunch at Kikki Bs. It was rather quiet there and the decor and music were relaxing. I had a really wonderful pasta dish and we shared the death by chocolate dessert. After lunch we stopped and got a movie and then went over to Bella's school for their Valentines party. We spoke to her teacher and she said she is very proud of how much better Bella is doing in School and so are we. On the way home from School we heard on the radio the news of the tragic shooting on the NIU campus. I think students will finally be returning to class next week. I use to go to NIU to use the law library when I was in paralegal School. After we got home Bella and I went to the library for a couple of hours. She plays in the play room and I read magazines, we checked out a couple of videos and came home. We had pizza and salad for supper and played a few games of Candyland since that is what Bella got for valentines day. I got flowers and a card and a stuffed dog.
Bella did not have school on Friday so I came home at lunch time and then Bella and I went to Culvers for fish and then on to the Discovery Museum for the rest of the day. While we were there Bella blew a hole in the toe of her shoe so we went to Target to get her a new pair.
Last Saturday Bella and I were suppose to be getting together with some friends in Wisconsin for an overnight but because of predicted bad weather we didn't go. I had really been looking forward to time with P and L. Hopefully we can reshedule soon. Last Saturday Bella and I went to Ice Skating and then to the dollar store for some more paper. In the afternoon I did my house work and then we went to the new Michaels. I bought a new scrapbook tool with my 50% off coupon and the rest of my gift card. Then Bella and I went out to supper and came home.
Sunday it rained almost the entire day and then turned to snow the roads were a mess, because all the rain turned to ice and the city is out of salt for the season and it has really been to cold for it to work anyway. Thankfully Scott made it safely to work and back.
Bella started running a fever on Sunday, she was not complaining about her ears or her throat but I was afraid it was either a ear infection or strep throat. She was off school on Monday for presidents day and still running a fever so Scott took her to the doctor and she has strep throat. On Tuesday she couldn't go to school but sick bay where I work agreed to take her so she went there for the afternoon.
She was feeling better and not feverish so we went to swimming and to woodmans for grocery shopping making it home as usual in time to see the last part of biggest loser.
We have been having a mock Joint commission survey at our facility this past week. The debriefing was Wednesday afternoon and we failed which is not good. We know the joint commission is at one of the other hospitals in town this week so who knows how much or how little time we have to get ourselves staightened out.
Yesterday we had two interviews for the paralegal position we have open. Both were good candidates so I hope they pick one.
Last night I went to Wal-greens to get pictures printed, but they were unable to make a disk which is what I need to put photos on our adoption site, hopefully I will update that soon. We also went to the library last night to get a few books. I checked out one of the "Chicken Soup for the Soul" books as I am about done with the one I have been reading and I like them but the stories are relatively short so I can read a little before bed, but I am not vested in a whole novel. I use to read a lot but I have not read much in the last few years other than kids books. I tried "The Purpose Driven Life" last year but couldn't finish it. Bella hurt herself at the library by trying to scoot on the step stool which doesn't work because once you put weight on them they don't roll evidently Bella doesn't get this because she tried it once and hurt her stomach and cried up a storm -very loudly at the library. Then when i was checking out books she tried it again and hurt her leg. Then last night in the tub she decided to use the plastic cups from her play blender and hold them around her mouth by sucking in. She did this for so long and for so many times that she now has bruises all around her mouth. It looks terrible! and once again means that we will not have a family picture taken this weekend. I am sure it seemed like a good idea at the time. I know 5 year olds don't think about consequences of their actions all the time. I hope it heals up ok and that she doesn't get teased at school and Scott isn't too hard on her about it.
Scott is off this weekend and we really have no plans as of yet except for Ice Skating lessons on Saturday and we have a cultural event at our adoption Agency on Sunday afternoon.
Have a great weekend!
I had taken Valentines Day off from work and Scott and I put Bella on the bus to go to school at noon and then went out to lunch at Kikki Bs. It was rather quiet there and the decor and music were relaxing. I had a really wonderful pasta dish and we shared the death by chocolate dessert. After lunch we stopped and got a movie and then went over to Bella's school for their Valentines party. We spoke to her teacher and she said she is very proud of how much better Bella is doing in School and so are we. On the way home from School we heard on the radio the news of the tragic shooting on the NIU campus. I think students will finally be returning to class next week. I use to go to NIU to use the law library when I was in paralegal School. After we got home Bella and I went to the library for a couple of hours. She plays in the play room and I read magazines, we checked out a couple of videos and came home. We had pizza and salad for supper and played a few games of Candyland since that is what Bella got for valentines day. I got flowers and a card and a stuffed dog.
Bella did not have school on Friday so I came home at lunch time and then Bella and I went to Culvers for fish and then on to the Discovery Museum for the rest of the day. While we were there Bella blew a hole in the toe of her shoe so we went to Target to get her a new pair.
Last Saturday Bella and I were suppose to be getting together with some friends in Wisconsin for an overnight but because of predicted bad weather we didn't go. I had really been looking forward to time with P and L. Hopefully we can reshedule soon. Last Saturday Bella and I went to Ice Skating and then to the dollar store for some more paper. In the afternoon I did my house work and then we went to the new Michaels. I bought a new scrapbook tool with my 50% off coupon and the rest of my gift card. Then Bella and I went out to supper and came home.
Sunday it rained almost the entire day and then turned to snow the roads were a mess, because all the rain turned to ice and the city is out of salt for the season and it has really been to cold for it to work anyway. Thankfully Scott made it safely to work and back.
Bella started running a fever on Sunday, she was not complaining about her ears or her throat but I was afraid it was either a ear infection or strep throat. She was off school on Monday for presidents day and still running a fever so Scott took her to the doctor and she has strep throat. On Tuesday she couldn't go to school but sick bay where I work agreed to take her so she went there for the afternoon.
She was feeling better and not feverish so we went to swimming and to woodmans for grocery shopping making it home as usual in time to see the last part of biggest loser.
We have been having a mock Joint commission survey at our facility this past week. The debriefing was Wednesday afternoon and we failed which is not good. We know the joint commission is at one of the other hospitals in town this week so who knows how much or how little time we have to get ourselves staightened out.
Yesterday we had two interviews for the paralegal position we have open. Both were good candidates so I hope they pick one.
Last night I went to Wal-greens to get pictures printed, but they were unable to make a disk which is what I need to put photos on our adoption site, hopefully I will update that soon. We also went to the library last night to get a few books. I checked out one of the "Chicken Soup for the Soul" books as I am about done with the one I have been reading and I like them but the stories are relatively short so I can read a little before bed, but I am not vested in a whole novel. I use to read a lot but I have not read much in the last few years other than kids books. I tried "The Purpose Driven Life" last year but couldn't finish it. Bella hurt herself at the library by trying to scoot on the step stool which doesn't work because once you put weight on them they don't roll evidently Bella doesn't get this because she tried it once and hurt her stomach and cried up a storm -very loudly at the library. Then when i was checking out books she tried it again and hurt her leg. Then last night in the tub she decided to use the plastic cups from her play blender and hold them around her mouth by sucking in. She did this for so long and for so many times that she now has bruises all around her mouth. It looks terrible! and once again means that we will not have a family picture taken this weekend. I am sure it seemed like a good idea at the time. I know 5 year olds don't think about consequences of their actions all the time. I hope it heals up ok and that she doesn't get teased at school and Scott isn't too hard on her about it.
Scott is off this weekend and we really have no plans as of yet except for Ice Skating lessons on Saturday and we have a cultural event at our adoption Agency on Sunday afternoon.
Have a great weekend!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
THE RESULTS ARE IN
Yesterday morning at the hospital where I worked they offered some free health screens. I had wanted to have my glucose checked and my cholesterol so I went. Here are the results:
Cholesterol 253 (should be less than 200)
Glucose 136 (should be between 70-90)
Blood pressure 133/86 (first time I have ever been high-usually I am low)
BMI 38.8 -OBESE (should be between 18.5 amd 24.9)
They weighed me at 205 I weighed myself at 202 this morning.
This is all devistating to me.
I feel way overwhelmed by my health or lack there of.
My husband said that if you continue to lose weight those numbers should get better.
IN OTHER NEWS
This past Saturday we went home to WI for our families annual sledding party. My brother and his son, my other brother, my sister and her family and Scott, Bella and me. We had a nice time sledding on the hill at the High School but it was sure snowing. Our potluck Fondue was fun, I really liked the caramel peanut butter fondue I made. We ended up spending the night and then going out to see my mom at the nursing home on Sunday. The roads were terrible, very icy with drifting blowing snow. Between Dodgeville and Madison we saw lots of cars in the ditch and I never got up to the speed limit the whole time. We stopped for gas, windshield washer and lunch in Madison. Between Madison and Beloit it was also icy on the interstate and again lots of cars in the ditch some even turned over. We did make it home safely. We washed all our clothes as they smelled like smoke from being at my dads. Yesterday we realized that we must have left Bella's snow pants at my dads.
My mom did not really look very well, still very puffy and she looked tired and old. She was sleeping when we got there and then we only stayed a short time and then she went down to lunch. My mom's glucose was over 400 on Sunday.
Not much else to report now that we are back to the work week. I am still on the policy project. I am off on Thursday so I can go out to lunch with Scott.
Have a great day.
Cholesterol 253 (should be less than 200)
Glucose 136 (should be between 70-90)
Blood pressure 133/86 (first time I have ever been high-usually I am low)
BMI 38.8 -OBESE (should be between 18.5 amd 24.9)
They weighed me at 205 I weighed myself at 202 this morning.
This is all devistating to me.
I feel way overwhelmed by my health or lack there of.
My husband said that if you continue to lose weight those numbers should get better.
IN OTHER NEWS
This past Saturday we went home to WI for our families annual sledding party. My brother and his son, my other brother, my sister and her family and Scott, Bella and me. We had a nice time sledding on the hill at the High School but it was sure snowing. Our potluck Fondue was fun, I really liked the caramel peanut butter fondue I made. We ended up spending the night and then going out to see my mom at the nursing home on Sunday. The roads were terrible, very icy with drifting blowing snow. Between Dodgeville and Madison we saw lots of cars in the ditch and I never got up to the speed limit the whole time. We stopped for gas, windshield washer and lunch in Madison. Between Madison and Beloit it was also icy on the interstate and again lots of cars in the ditch some even turned over. We did make it home safely. We washed all our clothes as they smelled like smoke from being at my dads. Yesterday we realized that we must have left Bella's snow pants at my dads.
My mom did not really look very well, still very puffy and she looked tired and old. She was sleeping when we got there and then we only stayed a short time and then she went down to lunch. My mom's glucose was over 400 on Sunday.
Not much else to report now that we are back to the work week. I am still on the policy project. I am off on Thursday so I can go out to lunch with Scott.
Have a great day.
Friday, February 8, 2008
TGIF
Well here it is the last day of the work week.
Last weekend was pretty good for us. Bella had Ice Skating on Saturday morning and she is doing so much better at her lessons and she really likes them. Bella was very disappointed that the ground hog saw his shadow and it means 6 more weeks of winter. It was pretty cloudy here so I am surprised he saw his shadow. I did not feel like doing much on Saturday afternoon so I didn't. On Sunday I worked very hard on cleaning our basement so that I would have a spot to work out. Sunday night was the super bowl. We had chicken wings and taco dip and watched the game. We were very happy that the NY Giants won. Which means that the last team to beat the Packers ended up being superbowl champions. I was not overly impressed by the commercials. I did like the Bud commercials. Pepsi's commercial with Justim Timberlake was annoying.
Monday was good except that I found out that summer camp sign up was Monday and not Tuesday like I thought and they were full. I put Bella on the waiting list but it doesn't look good. I am checking into the Y now.
Tuesday was super Tuesday and their was a primary here in IL I did not go to the polls. Obama won in IL which is his home state. I would not vote for him primarily because I don't like his stand on Immigration. Tuesday it started to snow here. They were predicting 12" of snow. They were canceling Tuesday night events right and left. They did not however cancel swim lessons (even thought they canceled the week before because it was so cold and I did not know it until we got there). We started out going the way we usually do and then for some reason we couldn't go any farther. I assume there was and accident although we could not see it. I turned around and wanted to just go home but Bella is whining in the back seat about not having lessons two weeks in a row so I drove down Riverside and we made it fine. There were very few students a class. It was still snowing when we left but not quite a hard so we went ahead and did our usual grocery shopping-we were out of milk so I needed to stop somewhere. We got home in time to see a good portion of the Biggest loser.
Wednesday was a snow day for both Bella and I. I didn't have anything pressing at work to do and I would have only been able to work part of the day as I would have had to come home to watch Bella when Scott left for work. Both the attorneys I work for drive quite a distance so they did not make it in either. I made a pot of Chili and some oatmeal cookies. Scott started the driveway, but the snow blower stopped working and he went to work and left me home to shovel the whole driveway myself. Bella went out with me for awhile and then she got cold and went in. It took me 3 hours to clear the driveway and the sidewalk. While I was outside 2 people got stuck at the corner, the plow went down East Drive 3 times but not down our street at all. Some fool was out riding his bike in the snow and the police came down our street to ticket anyone parked on the street during a snow emergency and the mailman managed to make it to our house. When I got done I went in immediately and took a very hot shower, I was afraid I would be very stiff and sore but I wasn't except that my hands ache. I think it stopped snowing around 6:30 and they plowed our street about 7:30 and plowed a huge pile of snow at the end of the driveway. Scott had to stay late at work because their third shift person called in and they were very busy! Scott got through the snow pile at the end of our driveway when he got home but I got stuck backing out to go to work on Wednesday morning. I think we got about 14" of snow. My MIL called from Hawaii yesterday and left a message that they had heard we had a lot of snow, but since no one was home must have gotten out.
Thursday we were all back to work and school as usual. I was busy at work all day with Policy stuff and our monthly staff meeting. I brought most of the cookies to work and they were gone by lunch time.
Tonight I will get my fondue ready for Saturday and get us packed up so we can go to Wisconsin tomorrow morning for our families annual sledding party. I also made our summer vacation plans for August in Northern Wisconsin this week so I am excited about that.
I did not exercise at all this week. I am so lazy-I expect that I burned up a lot of calories shoveling right? I haven't been weighing myself as my husband bought a new scale but he can't figure out how to make it work and he threw out the old one. I really don't need a scale to tell me percent body fat I just want to know how much I weigh.
The new Michaels store is opening near me this weekend and they are giving away a cricut machine. I really want one of these but can't afford one. Maybe I will get lucky.
Have a great weekend!
Last weekend was pretty good for us. Bella had Ice Skating on Saturday morning and she is doing so much better at her lessons and she really likes them. Bella was very disappointed that the ground hog saw his shadow and it means 6 more weeks of winter. It was pretty cloudy here so I am surprised he saw his shadow. I did not feel like doing much on Saturday afternoon so I didn't. On Sunday I worked very hard on cleaning our basement so that I would have a spot to work out. Sunday night was the super bowl. We had chicken wings and taco dip and watched the game. We were very happy that the NY Giants won. Which means that the last team to beat the Packers ended up being superbowl champions. I was not overly impressed by the commercials. I did like the Bud commercials. Pepsi's commercial with Justim Timberlake was annoying.
Monday was good except that I found out that summer camp sign up was Monday and not Tuesday like I thought and they were full. I put Bella on the waiting list but it doesn't look good. I am checking into the Y now.
Tuesday was super Tuesday and their was a primary here in IL I did not go to the polls. Obama won in IL which is his home state. I would not vote for him primarily because I don't like his stand on Immigration. Tuesday it started to snow here. They were predicting 12" of snow. They were canceling Tuesday night events right and left. They did not however cancel swim lessons (even thought they canceled the week before because it was so cold and I did not know it until we got there). We started out going the way we usually do and then for some reason we couldn't go any farther. I assume there was and accident although we could not see it. I turned around and wanted to just go home but Bella is whining in the back seat about not having lessons two weeks in a row so I drove down Riverside and we made it fine. There were very few students a class. It was still snowing when we left but not quite a hard so we went ahead and did our usual grocery shopping-we were out of milk so I needed to stop somewhere. We got home in time to see a good portion of the Biggest loser.
Wednesday was a snow day for both Bella and I. I didn't have anything pressing at work to do and I would have only been able to work part of the day as I would have had to come home to watch Bella when Scott left for work. Both the attorneys I work for drive quite a distance so they did not make it in either. I made a pot of Chili and some oatmeal cookies. Scott started the driveway, but the snow blower stopped working and he went to work and left me home to shovel the whole driveway myself. Bella went out with me for awhile and then she got cold and went in. It took me 3 hours to clear the driveway and the sidewalk. While I was outside 2 people got stuck at the corner, the plow went down East Drive 3 times but not down our street at all. Some fool was out riding his bike in the snow and the police came down our street to ticket anyone parked on the street during a snow emergency and the mailman managed to make it to our house. When I got done I went in immediately and took a very hot shower, I was afraid I would be very stiff and sore but I wasn't except that my hands ache. I think it stopped snowing around 6:30 and they plowed our street about 7:30 and plowed a huge pile of snow at the end of the driveway. Scott had to stay late at work because their third shift person called in and they were very busy! Scott got through the snow pile at the end of our driveway when he got home but I got stuck backing out to go to work on Wednesday morning. I think we got about 14" of snow. My MIL called from Hawaii yesterday and left a message that they had heard we had a lot of snow, but since no one was home must have gotten out.
Thursday we were all back to work and school as usual. I was busy at work all day with Policy stuff and our monthly staff meeting. I brought most of the cookies to work and they were gone by lunch time.
Tonight I will get my fondue ready for Saturday and get us packed up so we can go to Wisconsin tomorrow morning for our families annual sledding party. I also made our summer vacation plans for August in Northern Wisconsin this week so I am excited about that.
I did not exercise at all this week. I am so lazy-I expect that I burned up a lot of calories shoveling right? I haven't been weighing myself as my husband bought a new scale but he can't figure out how to make it work and he threw out the old one. I really don't need a scale to tell me percent body fat I just want to know how much I weigh.
The new Michaels store is opening near me this weekend and they are giving away a cricut machine. I really want one of these but can't afford one. Maybe I will get lucky.
Have a great weekend!
Friday, February 1, 2008
A NEW DAY
Here in Northern Illinois we woke up to several more inches of snowy white this morning, not enough to cancel school however. Its pretty and it is warmer here-26 degrees. Earlier this week we had wind chills that put us 35 degrees below zero so this is a heat wave. I don’t really mind the snow so much, I don’t like to drive in that much especially after Bella and I ended up in the ditch a couple years ago. What does bug me are people who don’t clean the snow off their cars. Here they are driving down the road with 5” of new snow on the car roof, hood and trunk, if you are lucky they have cleaned off the windshield and back window, but sometimes they have just cleared off a patch. How can these people see? How can that be safe? The snow on their car is now blowing off on to mine.
Speaking of safety yesterday driving to work I noticed that the lady in the front passenger side of the vehicle next to me was breast feeding. Babies in vehicles need to be secured in a car seat! It is the law! Can you imagine what would have happened if that vehicle had been in an accident? I don’t understand people who don’t care for their children more than that.
Today is WEAR RED DAY-Are you wearing red?-I am. This is sponsored by the American Heart Association to help raise women’s awareness of cardiovascular disease and empower women to reduce their risk.
Tomorrow is Ground Hog’s Day. Bella has been learning about this in kindergarten. She will tell you she is excited about Ground Hogs Day and doesn’t want him to see his shadow because that will mean spring is on the way. I asked her what was so great about spring and she said you can wear short sleeved shirts and short sleeved pants. She is so funny. They are having a Ground Hog Day ceremony at Klehm Arboretum tomorrow but it is at 10:45 and we don’t get done with Ice Skating until 10:30 so we could not make it.
I have a CD that has 100 reasons to lose 100 pounds. Reason #1 To Feel Good About yourself. I don’t feel really good about myself knowing how overweight I am, how hard it is to find clothes that look good and never wanting to put on a bathing suit.
I plan to list one of these reasons pretty regularly so check back to see.
Yesterday when I was talking about my health issues I forgot to mention one other thing and that is that I have the driest skin this side of the Mississippi! Last night I just itched everywhere. The amount of skin I have to cove all my fat is so much that I cannot imagine putting on enough lotion so I don’t.
Finally from my Focus Your Day-Talks about not being alone in your problems. I am sure that I am not alone as an obese, lack of energy, dry skin, incontinence, heart burn lack of faith person, but I sure wish I knew someone who was too.
Speaking of safety yesterday driving to work I noticed that the lady in the front passenger side of the vehicle next to me was breast feeding. Babies in vehicles need to be secured in a car seat! It is the law! Can you imagine what would have happened if that vehicle had been in an accident? I don’t understand people who don’t care for their children more than that.
Today is WEAR RED DAY-Are you wearing red?-I am. This is sponsored by the American Heart Association to help raise women’s awareness of cardiovascular disease and empower women to reduce their risk.
Tomorrow is Ground Hog’s Day. Bella has been learning about this in kindergarten. She will tell you she is excited about Ground Hogs Day and doesn’t want him to see his shadow because that will mean spring is on the way. I asked her what was so great about spring and she said you can wear short sleeved shirts and short sleeved pants. She is so funny. They are having a Ground Hog Day ceremony at Klehm Arboretum tomorrow but it is at 10:45 and we don’t get done with Ice Skating until 10:30 so we could not make it.
I have a CD that has 100 reasons to lose 100 pounds. Reason #1 To Feel Good About yourself. I don’t feel really good about myself knowing how overweight I am, how hard it is to find clothes that look good and never wanting to put on a bathing suit.
I plan to list one of these reasons pretty regularly so check back to see.
Yesterday when I was talking about my health issues I forgot to mention one other thing and that is that I have the driest skin this side of the Mississippi! Last night I just itched everywhere. The amount of skin I have to cove all my fat is so much that I cannot imagine putting on enough lotion so I don’t.
Finally from my Focus Your Day-Talks about not being alone in your problems. I am sure that I am not alone as an obese, lack of energy, dry skin, incontinence, heart burn lack of faith person, but I sure wish I knew someone who was too.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
JANUARY
Well here it is the last day of January and this is only my fourth post for the month. I have lots to say as always but not ambition to do it. This blog is supposed to chronicle my struggles with the scale and I guess I am not blogging about it because I have pretty much refused to struggle with the scale this month.
I know, I know NEW YEAR, NEW YOU and all that but I am not a New Me I am the same old fat girl I was last year with the same old hand ups, excuses and lack of ambition.
No, I have not ignored my scale this month and in fact I am down to 201 pounds-How I am not sure, but I long to be below 200 pounds!
We have some fitness equipment at the hospital where I work and I cost $15 per month to use it. I thought I would sign up for that and do the treadmill for 30 minutes on my lunch. My work out bag has been sitting under my desk for at least 2 weeks and I have not been down there to even sign up yet.
I have been doing the slim fast shakes for breakfast and lunch and it is going ok except I do eat a regular lunch or a bowl a cereal for breakfast one in awhile. It is not so much that I get hungry it is more that I want to eat something. We will see if I can refocus that effort in February.
I have not been working out with Billy despite the fact that I got the new DVDs I wanted for Christmas. I usually exercise on the sun porch but it has just been too cold! It is hard to roll out of a nice warm bed to exercise in a deep freeze. I could exercise in my basement if I could just clear away some of the Crap! But I am sure not motivated to do that either. I have worked down there some but it is a real mess. I have lots of stuff I don’t know what to do with. I probably should just junk it all.
Ultimately it is not only about the number on the scale for me. I really do not feel well most days and I think it is related to being obese. I have had quite a few problems with heartburn or acid reflux. Both of which my doctor tells me would get better if I lost weight. I did take prilosec OTC for the 2 weeks around the Holidays and it was nice to have that daily problem. Since then it has not been nearly as bad as before.
I also have a cough that has been hanging around for a year or so. My family and friends always comment on it. I think it is much better these days. I know it is better when I have less heart burn. No, it is not bronchitis.
I have a slight incontinence problem as well usually when I sneeze or cough hard. It is really annoying. My husband thinks it is funny-HA –HA. They tell me this too will probably get better if I lost weight.
Additionally I do not know what is up with my period. It is still pretty regular but the cramps and headache that accompany it seem to be getting worse. This whole thing is really annoying, I call my period the “Grand Illusionist” because all my life it comes regularly giving the Illusion that you could get pregnant when in reality we know in my case that is not true. Although it was never definitely determined why we could not conceive their best guess is advanced maternal age which translates to me being Too OLD!
I am tired, or maybe lazy or both. I just do not feel like doing much except watch TV at night. I do get Bella to story time and Swim lessons and I am still doing the grocery shopping and housework etc (please note that my husband does a lot to help me with these things).
Am I stressed? Well maybe a little, work is going pretty well and Scott and I are getting along better, my mother-in-law is in Hawaii for a month, but I am still worried about my daughter’s behavior at school, wondering what I did wrong and what I can do to rectify the situation. I have lost touch with one of my friends and am afraid it will happen to other friends. Our family’s annual sledding party has not happened because we can’t see to set a date and when I spoke to my sister S about it she said none of the proposed dates worked for her family but it “didn’t matter” well it does matter. We started this annual event in 2001 and have had one every year. Part of the reason we started it is that we knew as we all got older and had families of our own we would not always be able to get together at Christmas (and we don’t) we would have this event so we could all be together. So it does matter and S did not even respond to the email that those dates didn’t work I only know because I called her. Last year we had it but my brother D and his family bailed out at the last very rude minute and now S says it doesn’t matter. I want Bella to have memories of this event like all my siblings kids do. Bella is the youngest Grand child my parents have and now that they have Great-grand kids they could care less about Bella and it pisses me off. So while it is normally my job, spouse or MIL that stress me out now it is friends and family and I just can’t deal with the rejection I feel from these sources.
Finally to top it all off I don’t know where I am on my faith journey, in fact I am more sure that the journey has stopped and I don’t know how to start it again or even if I should.
All in all I know the problems I face daily are probably minimal in comparison with what some others deal with, but they sure seem insurmountable to me today.
Here is to a better February and the hope of spring!
I know, I know NEW YEAR, NEW YOU and all that but I am not a New Me I am the same old fat girl I was last year with the same old hand ups, excuses and lack of ambition.
No, I have not ignored my scale this month and in fact I am down to 201 pounds-How I am not sure, but I long to be below 200 pounds!
We have some fitness equipment at the hospital where I work and I cost $15 per month to use it. I thought I would sign up for that and do the treadmill for 30 minutes on my lunch. My work out bag has been sitting under my desk for at least 2 weeks and I have not been down there to even sign up yet.
I have been doing the slim fast shakes for breakfast and lunch and it is going ok except I do eat a regular lunch or a bowl a cereal for breakfast one in awhile. It is not so much that I get hungry it is more that I want to eat something. We will see if I can refocus that effort in February.
I have not been working out with Billy despite the fact that I got the new DVDs I wanted for Christmas. I usually exercise on the sun porch but it has just been too cold! It is hard to roll out of a nice warm bed to exercise in a deep freeze. I could exercise in my basement if I could just clear away some of the Crap! But I am sure not motivated to do that either. I have worked down there some but it is a real mess. I have lots of stuff I don’t know what to do with. I probably should just junk it all.
Ultimately it is not only about the number on the scale for me. I really do not feel well most days and I think it is related to being obese. I have had quite a few problems with heartburn or acid reflux. Both of which my doctor tells me would get better if I lost weight. I did take prilosec OTC for the 2 weeks around the Holidays and it was nice to have that daily problem. Since then it has not been nearly as bad as before.
I also have a cough that has been hanging around for a year or so. My family and friends always comment on it. I think it is much better these days. I know it is better when I have less heart burn. No, it is not bronchitis.
I have a slight incontinence problem as well usually when I sneeze or cough hard. It is really annoying. My husband thinks it is funny-HA –HA. They tell me this too will probably get better if I lost weight.
Additionally I do not know what is up with my period. It is still pretty regular but the cramps and headache that accompany it seem to be getting worse. This whole thing is really annoying, I call my period the “Grand Illusionist” because all my life it comes regularly giving the Illusion that you could get pregnant when in reality we know in my case that is not true. Although it was never definitely determined why we could not conceive their best guess is advanced maternal age which translates to me being Too OLD!
I am tired, or maybe lazy or both. I just do not feel like doing much except watch TV at night. I do get Bella to story time and Swim lessons and I am still doing the grocery shopping and housework etc (please note that my husband does a lot to help me with these things).
Am I stressed? Well maybe a little, work is going pretty well and Scott and I are getting along better, my mother-in-law is in Hawaii for a month, but I am still worried about my daughter’s behavior at school, wondering what I did wrong and what I can do to rectify the situation. I have lost touch with one of my friends and am afraid it will happen to other friends. Our family’s annual sledding party has not happened because we can’t see to set a date and when I spoke to my sister S about it she said none of the proposed dates worked for her family but it “didn’t matter” well it does matter. We started this annual event in 2001 and have had one every year. Part of the reason we started it is that we knew as we all got older and had families of our own we would not always be able to get together at Christmas (and we don’t) we would have this event so we could all be together. So it does matter and S did not even respond to the email that those dates didn’t work I only know because I called her. Last year we had it but my brother D and his family bailed out at the last very rude minute and now S says it doesn’t matter. I want Bella to have memories of this event like all my siblings kids do. Bella is the youngest Grand child my parents have and now that they have Great-grand kids they could care less about Bella and it pisses me off. So while it is normally my job, spouse or MIL that stress me out now it is friends and family and I just can’t deal with the rejection I feel from these sources.
Finally to top it all off I don’t know where I am on my faith journey, in fact I am more sure that the journey has stopped and I don’t know how to start it again or even if I should.
All in all I know the problems I face daily are probably minimal in comparison with what some others deal with, but they sure seem insurmountable to me today.
Here is to a better February and the hope of spring!
Monday, January 21, 2008
Can't cope
Did you ever have one of those days where you felt you just couldn't cope. It is one of those days for me and it is way more than the Packers losing there super Bowl bid by a field goal in overtime.
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